Thursday, June 29, 2006
Thinking about it
I know i havent been the best person in the whole wide world....and i noe i'm not the worst...i'm not the most well-behaved one....but sometimes i begin to think that i am the worst-behaved one...all my teachers hate me and i noe that for a fact....i keep on blaming others for all my mistakes...first of all my teachers....i mean who doesnt...seriously....if u get into trouble at skool...when u come home to explain it to ur parents...u'll definitely be going all :" It's not my fault...that teacher hates me...she's like so against me..." and all that...that's what i've been doing all this time...but maybe it's time to take some responsibility for myself n for others...
Today was hari terbuka ( open day ) in my skool where all the parents come to skool n talk to their kid's teachers and all....ok....i hav been getting into quite a lot of trouble lately....so i knew today was like gonna suck a lot...i mean i noe wat i've done and i've warned my parents about it....for instance splashing my friend with water on her birthday (that was like .....forget about it...if i type out what i think about that case...this whole post will be flooded with all the bad words from A to Z..) and keeping something that belongs to a teacher for myself ( just got caught for that yesterday with my friend)....and all the normal stuff like being talketive n changing place in class ith no respect for teachers whatsoever....but then when i heard what the teacher said to me in front of my dad....it was like so much worse than what i thought...i mean...it was really shocking and all...i noe all my friends and including me thinks that teacher's a b*tch...but i can't help but feel what she said could be true....and of course...my parents were pissed and seriously disappointed....i really don't want my parents to be so disappointed in me...
All this while i've alwiz thought that i was just playful n mischevious n that i'm actually good on the inside....but i am seriously beginning to doubt it....maybe i'm not good...i mean ...just by seeing the amount of bad words i use in a day....i really hav to quit that habit...i quit it for a while but then it came back again....i am trying my best, really i am, not to put any bad words in this post....and the whole FuX nickname thing....i'm dumping it....it's kinda rude....i'm gonna be the best Min xian ever...i'm gonna be a very very very good girl..
....for as long as i can
Thinking about being good...seriously...i'm thinking a bout it and i'm doing it....
the reformed angel signing off<3
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Feed me. Seriously, I'm starving.# ;
