Thursday, July 20, 2006
Am I your anything?
I bet many ppl around here has a certain someone who's always there in their heart....for some ppl there may be many ppl in their heart but usually u love dat specific person the most....well...maybe it might not be love yet...maybe just a crush...it maybe a little crush or a huge obsession or sumthing....but whatever...u just like dat person...when u like someone....u r always there for dat person....backing him or her up...whether she or he knows it or not...u feel flushed n happy when u see dat person...n all u can even think about is dat person...n when he or she talks to u...even if it's juz a friendly "hi" or maybe nothing but a smile or a look.....it can seriously brighten up ur day....even if dat day seems to be ur worst day ever....
Ok....i hav someone in my mind now...so dats y i'm posting this....but diz post aint about me...it's for everyone out there who has this feeling...the thing is...this post isnt about love n liking ppl....it's more about liking someone who doesnt hav a clue about how u feel n u don't hav a clue about how he or she feels...all u can do is wonder "Am i ur anything?" as u think about dat person ... that's wat i feel...that question reels through my mind as i talk to dat person or when i look at dat person or think about him…u juz cant stop thinking about it…I mean …there could be a possibility that he or her likes u back …but then there would be the possibility that they don’t…
I admit it…I dun really noe what the heck (I’m not gonna write what the hell....ppl hav been telling me my blog is filled with bad words >.<)I am posting about…I hav been thinking about this question for so long…its going thru my brain…it’s like so seriously frustrating…n then I juz get this big surge of energy and tell myself I’m gonna tell that person how I feel for him…but then after five seconds…I juz can’t do it…I don’t hav the guts…I mean …this isn’t juz about me…to evry1 reading this…hav u ever felt that way before…this happens to everyone of us…living on this earth….it really kills us all from the inside…but to some ppl who hasn’t had this feeling before….u’re lucky n pls appreciate it…
Why must it be so frustrating…why must we feel something…I’d rather not feel anything…wouldn’t it just be so much better…?
You know…if u feel this post is going nowhere…then just stop reading it…cause my mind’s going nowhere too…everyone fears rejection…therefore it’s so hard confronting that special person and just telling them how u feel about him/her…wouldn’t it be great if we knew what that person feels about us in advance…that would save us so much pain…
That’s why I’m giving up…I just wanna shut love out of my life for a while n turn to the real loves in my life like music…blogging…studies…friends…and especially my family…but if I could …if I dared to…I’d definitely tell that special person how I feel about him…
If I could…
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Feed me. Seriously, I'm starving.# ;
